Bittersweet Symphony.

So Saturday was graduation, so now I am officially done with high school. Most people are happy to be done, but me on the other hand, not so much. I'm going to miss seeing everyone I did each day and all the friends I made. It sucks knowing that you will most likely never see any of them again, even friends, this kind of step forward changes everything. Bleh, it just makes me depressed I would be lying if I said I don't miss high school already.

Today's Playlist:
Someday We'll Knoww- New Radicals
Fix You- Coldplay

(these two songs are most likely the one's I will be listening to the most the next couple days.)

The Weight Has Been Lifted.

So school is finally over, as of Tuesday. I'm very excited, but also very sad at the same time, it's just very bittersweet. It just sucks knowing that you are never going to see half the people you saw everyday, and even some friends ever again.

Anyways, today was senior breakfast and graduation practice! Last night I slept over at my friend Rachel's with my friends Natasha, Jessica, and Victoria. It was quite a crazy night, even though I ended up turning in early, I was just so exhausted though I couldn't help but fall asleep! So this morning we all drove together, even though we ended up being twenty minutes late haha, then went to the auditorium to watch a video with a collection of pictures from our senior year as well as our senior pictures. After that we headed over to Old Country Buffet for breakfast. It was a lot of fun taking picture, talking, and hanging out with all the seniors there, i'm going to miss everyone so much! Here are a few pictures from the night before and OCB:
haha it's a long story.

Me and Nate. :]


Me and Matt. :]

Tomorrows senior ditch day which should be fun, a bunch of us are having a get together at the park Veterns Acres, I can't wait! Until tomorrow!

Today's Playlist:
Aeroplane- The Everybodyfields
Butterfly Nets- Bishop Allen
Hoppipolla- Sigur Ros
Souvenirs- Architecture In Helsinki
Vincent O'Brien- M. Ward
Smoke Detector- Rilo Kiley

Sunshine and Music.

The weather has been so nice outside the past couple days, and I love it! The constant sunshine and rising temperatures are a great reminder that summer vacation is approaching very quickly, which is even more exciting. I need to start making a list of plans that I have in store for me this summer, so far I have a couple:

• Bike rides with Mariah

• Graduation parties
  

• Lollapalooza 2009 (an AMAZING line-up this year I might add, check it out! http://2009.lollapalooza.com/ )

• A trip to Utah

• Dave Mathews at Alpine-- hopefully!

• Spend most of my time outside; tanning, going to the beach, the park, playing sports, etc.
  

• Furthering my learning at playing the mandolin

• Read as many books as I can
  

Those are the few that I can think of right now, but I'm sure there will be much, much more in the near future. I want to find a lot more concerts to go to this summer, I feel like I have hardly gone to any, which is pretty true, four isn't a whole lot. I will just have to start crossing my fingers and hoping I find some good one's I can go to. This talk of concerts brings us to the second topic at hand besides sunshine, and that's music. The past couple days I have been downloading an infinite amount of new music to start listening to! Finding new bands always makes my day, and I can't wait to start listening away. I can't go a day without my Ipod, it is one of my prize possessions and you will always see it with me. I love when people look through it and are just like "what the heck kind of music is this?!" I find it to be really quite funny, but I personally think I listen to very good music, and not only have I gotten the above comments, but also the "you're music taste is great!' one's too. Me saying that probably makes me sound full of myself, but I don't mean for it to at all. It's great finding people who actually appreciate music and don't just listen to the mainstream crap that is out there now, yuck. It all sounds the same to me, give me something original, seriously!

Well, I should probably enjoy this beautiful day while I can before work. Until tomorrow.

Today's Playlist:
Lover- Devendra Banhart
Wake Up- Arcade Fire
Sunshine- Matt Costa
Carefree Highway- Gordon Lightfoot
Sing Songs Along- Tilly and the Wall
Summer Teeth- Wilco
Train Song- Feist and Ben Gibbard
Subterranean Homesick Blues- Bob Dylan

The Bitch of Living.

I'm so sick of my mother, I literally don't know how much longer I can stand living with her. It's to the point where if I can, I might move into one of my friends houses after graduation. I've never wanted to get out as much as I do now. Why can't she see that I'm working my butt off trying to get done with school? She keeps putting endless amounts of pressure on me and acts like all I do is lie to her about getting my school work done, when I actually am getting it done! UGH I have never been more frustrated in my life as I am right now, and today was actually a good day until that happened.

I just can't wait for this weekend, when I will finally have some peace and quiet. Luckily my family is going out of town so I will have some breathing room, even though my mom is upset that I'm not being apart of the family and going with. Oh well, I think I deserve some alone time.

During these hard times there is one thing that can, has, and always will get me through this, and that is SPRING AWAKENING. I have never loved something as much as I love that play, I just find it to be so relate able, and can't wait to get my tattoo dedicated to it! I have it all planned out already, I'm so excited to get it done.

Well it's off to bed to for me!

Today's Playlist:
The Bitch of Living (live from SoHo)- Duncan Sheik, Hunter Parish, John Gallagher
Where Does It Hurt- Alexz Johnson
Paranoia in B-flat Major- The Avett Brothers
Revelry- Kings of Leon
Carousel- Iron & Wine
The Garden- Mirah
Travel Song- Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin

I love my mandolin.

To begin with.
I absolutely ADORE my mandolin. Lately I've been trying to learn some basics; reading notes, tabs, etc. I can't wait until I can fully play and learn different songs, and not be stuck to just strumming and such. If only my love Chris (Thile) could teach me, how amazing that would be. He is such a genius and definitely is my main influence for wanting to learn to play, not to mention he is absolutely gorgeous and my husband in the very near future. I will stop rambling now.

I've decided to start this blog because it seems like a good way to empty out my thoughts, and so my sisters can see what I am up to/thinking. I feel as if I am very misinterpreted, so hopefully these posts clear up more of who I am I guess you could say? That sounds kind of cheesy, but it's the only way I can think of putting it.

School is crazy as ever, but I guess that's expected especially your senior year. There is A LOT of pressure on getting everything done in order to graduate, something I am very scared I am not going to get to do. I mean I'm not saying I'm not going to graduate, but it just seems like I have an infinite amount of work to do before I get there even though it's next weekend. I just can't wait for it to be over, what a huge weight off the shoulders that will be. I'm truly going to miss it though, the people I've met, teachers who have been mentors to me, it's going to be incredibly hard for me never in a million years would I have thought that I would get as attached to that school as I did, I just can't imagine what it's going to be like not seeing the people I do everyday and not having as strong of a support system. Oh lord am I petrified.

Well I guess that's all for today, until tomorrow.

Today's Playlist:
To Be Alone With You- Sufjan Stevens
Air Pollution- Page France
Ophelia- Gabe Witcher
I Was Broken- Robert Pattinson
Suicide Medicine- Rocky Votolato
Scotch and Chocolate- Nickel Creek